Friday, May 13, 2011

Journal Entry 3

Journal Entry 3
Thursday May 12, 2011

The Lord called me into the living room this morning.  He pointed to a specific place on the floor where He wanted me to sit.  When I sat down, I could see Jesus in the Spirit directly in front of me in a seated position, Indian style.  I saw His face, beard and eyes.  His features are not very defined to me yet.  I cannot see the color of His eyes or the lines on His face.  He would often turn His face displaying His profile.   His features are of a young man in his early thirties. While observing Jesus with my Spiritual eyes, my mind cannot quite comprehend what I am experiencing.  My thoughts posed a question as I experienced this vision.  My mentor explained to me that you can experience what is going on in the Spirit, and your mind will not be able to process the information that is being downloaded into your spirit.  Your spirit can process the information faster than your mind.
Even though my mind cannot understand the reality of what is happening at the present time, I can still see Jesus seated in front of me, and then a rock or cave with a small spring flowing towards me.   In the distance, I could see a being of Light.  The Light was so brilliant.  It was a very white light, not yellow like the sun.  It was a very translucent white light.  The spring became clear and clearer in the vision.  The spring flowed out of a crevice that had been carved out of the rock.  To the left of the spring looked like a window cut out of the mountain (I am in another place in the mountain of God).  I observed the water flow to the edge of the spring where I was holding a pitcher to capture the water.  I then set the water pitcher aside, so that I could feel the water run over my hands as it flowed to the ground below.  The water did not splash onto the ground.  It was absorbed into the rock.
Moments later, I saw another hand in the water with mine.  I looked over to see feet in sandals and the bottom of a robe.  My eyes lifted to see a man with a dark brown hair, beard and eyes.  His robe was white with a brown tunic draped over it.  He was smiling and talking to me.  The Holy Spirit spoke to my spirit saying this was the Apostle Paul.  Jesus came up to greet Paul with a holy kiss and embrace. 
The Lord said to me, “This is Paul.  He is here to teach you about his earthly ministry and struggles on earth in the flesh.”
Jesus hugged Paul and began to leave.  I cried out to Jesus, stating to him that I did not want Him to leave without hugging me.  The Savior came over to me, kissed me on the forehead, and then he walked away.   I wondered where He was going.
Paul sat down next to the spring, placing his hand in the running water.  I joined him on the opposite side. 
He said to me, while looking at the water running off his hand, “This is a well.  This is a well of living water.  This is the water that flows through you and me.  It flows from the Throne of God, through every corner of heaven, and to every soul that has been grafted into the family of God.”
Paul then explained to me about his struggles in the flesh.  He said that he would cry out to the Lord about it.  He shared that the Lord would put to death the struggles he had through the Spirit. I think it’s interesting that I am having this conversation with Paul.  Presently, I have been crying out to God about my own struggles in the flesh.  Day and I night I have cried out to God about the war I that wages within me, along with my desire to walk out this life in the Spirit.  His struggles were like my own.  I understood what Paul was explaining in Romans 7:15-25 (NKJV):
For what I am doing, I do not understand.  For what I will to do, that I do not practice, but what I hate, that I do.  If then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good.  But now, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.  For I know that in me (that is my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find.  For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice.   Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.  I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good.  I delight in the law of God according to the inward man.  But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.  O wretched man that I am!  Who will deliver me from this body of death?  I thank God – through Jesus Christ our Lord!  So then, with my mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.”

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Journal Entry 1

                                                                  Monday, April 4th 2011

On Monday  April, 4th  I felt the leading of the Holy Spirit to call Michael “Dad” Plemmons to pray.  I asked him if I could pray for him in the Spirit.  He agreed. I proceeded to pray.  While praying for about 5 minutes or so, the Lord gave me a vision of a forest with a beautiful summit in the distance.  Below, in the valley, I saw a path with Michael and Gene walking towards the mountain.  Each of them had a scroll in hand.  I had an understanding that they were on the way to the Mountain for an important mission.   I explained to Michael I could see the mountain in the distance, covered with snow.  He said, “It’s not covered with snow, but the Glory of GOD.”  At that moment, I had a closer look at summit of the mountain.  Indeed the Glory of God was covering it.  I continued to pray for another few moments, Michael was quiet.  I asked him, “Are you okay?”
 He said, “I’m plastered.” 
I asked, “Are you drunk?”
Michael replied, “I am beyond drunk.  When you have spent as much time in the presence of God as I have, the presence of God is overwhelming.”  I can only imagine what he was speaking about because I have yet to experience this.  I am always curious and fascinated what Michael experiences with God.  It’s beyond my comprehension.
After our brief dialogue, I continued to pray for my beloved mentor and spiritual father.  In my heart, I was praying for relief i for physical suffering he had been enduring throughout the night. While I was praying for his healing, I had another vision.  I found myself in a cave on the mountain of God.  I was standing there looking around.  With my spiritual eyes I could see from a distance everything happening.  The Holy Spirit hovered over me in a cloud (I’ve heard to the cloud as a glory cloud of God).   I could see myself wearing a cream color cloak with a hood that covered my face and hair.     Moments later, I could see Jesus standing next me. He pulled me to himself, cradling me in His arms like an infant or small child, (He is taller than me in comparison.  On earth I’m petite and there I am too) and then he laid me on the ground in a deep rest. 
When Jesus laid me on the ground the Father entered! He began talking to the Savior.  I could not hear what they were saying. I could only see their gestures and body language.  Michael arrived shortly after, with a scroll in hand.  Jesus greeted him with open arms and placed his arm around him like a good friend or brother.  They both sat down against the cave wall observing me laid out on the floor.  They gestured back and forth with one another in comedic manner.  The Father joined them on the floor.  I could see their conversation was pleasant and friendly, often pointing me on the floor.  The Holy Spirit continued hovering over me.  From time to time, I could see human shaped hands reach down towards me from the cloud.  I sensed he was checking up on me to see if I was doing okay.   I was certainly in good company.
On earth, I had finished praying for Michael.  I shared with him the vision I was having.  He confirmed that my experience was similar to his experiences with the Lord.  He had been to the same cave or one just like it.  I sense this was the exact same one he had been to.  He had been here worshiping the Lord.  His cloak was not white like mine, but red.  I’ve seen Michael in the cloak before in the Spirit.  Michael told me that I was in the cave to learn more about the Lord and learn how to just be with Him.  This has been the prayer of my heart for some time. I really want to know the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.  I understand that He has gifted me with prophecy, visions, dreams, exhortation, words of knowledge, spiritual discernment, and many other beautiful gifts to use to build up the body Christ.  However miraculous these gifts are- it does not mean I have truly known the Lord.  It’s helped my faith and helped me understand that God is there and present.  I’d say since 2007, I’ve wanted to know God personally on a much deeper level than I ever have.  Now, I understand nothing compares to love of God.  The Lord is so humble!  Beautiful!  I want to love Him with all my heart and soul.  Everything I have, I want surrendered to Him.  I’ve learned from Gene Markland, Michael Plemmons, and reading the scripture I have absolutely no power to change myself.  The Grace of God truly changes you.  It puts to death the deeds of the flesh, crucifying you to the cross with Jesus, so that you can live out of your spirit and yield to God himself.  Amen to that!  Praise God for His grace!