Friday, June 22, 2012
A few nights ago, while I was driving home, the Lord spoke to me and said, "You are now my apostle." I took the word the Lord delivered to my thoughts. The only thing that had come to mind was, "Why me?" How could this be -- I'm not perfect. I'm not as devoted as others. The why question has not been answered. I know that in scriptures that God did not use perfect people, except Jesus. He was perfect in every way. I can ask why or I can just Lord have your way. I say Lord have your way! If He wants to put this mantle upon my life. I will do it. I love Him to0 much. I will follow Him, even if it means giving up my life in His name. My heart belongs to Him. I love Him so much, that I crave His presence night and day. He is always on my mind. There is not a moment I am not thinking about the Lord and my hunger for His presence. I hunger for change in my heart. I desire to view the world through His eyes. I desire to be Holy as He is Holy.
I was speaking with my spiritual Father, Michael, the other day. He has restated one comment to be several times, "You cannot see God as He is until you can see yourself as you are through His eyes.". This has pierced by heart on many levels. It has not made since until now.
I had called Michael to share with Him the vision I had the night before. Very few people understand the experiences I have in the Lord. Michael, has been walking in the Spirit for a very long time. He has regular visions and trips to heaven on a regular basis. I heard him speak for the first time in a staff chapel when I worked for the Christian Broadcasting network back in the fall of 2008. He spoke about being a seer and that he would spend time at the throne of God praying for people/world. He shared various experiences that touched me so deeply. My heart was open to hear more! After the chapel, I followed him to the break room. I asked him about his experiences with the Lord. He was more than happy share. Ever since that day, he has become someone close to my heart.
Michael, was even more full of surprises. It turned out that he had a childhood friend, Gene. Who walked in the same way as he. Gene and Michael have been caught up in the Spirit together and have shared many experiences in the Spirit. Gene has also shared with me his experiences in the Lord. Their testimonies combined give God such glory.
There lives and walkes with the Lord is truly based on the Pauline Epistles. There is so much depth and truth that has still yet to be revealed to the rest of the church. These two men have it! They have the truth of the gospel! Gene has written the book based on the Pauline Epistles and his experiences in the Lord. The book would change the perspective of any believer and even convert a nonbeliever. (It's called Spirit Fellowship http://spiritfellowship.com/ or http://www.facebook.com/pages/Spirit-Fellowship/338474906209456)
My life has been changed radically by their own experiences. Before, I met them I was having visions and dreams. After I met them, my visions became more in depth! I began to prohecy things even more. The Lord allowed be to speak words to them, that would later come into fruition. They have encouraged the gifts that I have.
The latest vision I had was shortly after the Lord called me an apostle. In my living room another vision started, I saw Jesus sitting next me. In front of me was Holy Spirit, like a pillar of fire, and in front of Him was an angel holding a scroll. The Father stepped up to speak to the angel. In the Spirit, I heard him say, "Speak to her what is written on the scroll." I heard what the angel said and what was written on the scroll. I heard, "You will be delivered from all that binds you! You will be healed inwardly. You will be free".
Then I heard the Father speak, "He said I will give you the angel Gabriel to be with you at all times. He will be your guardian." In the Spirit, the Lord showed me Gabriel. I could only see him from the back and in the front I can only from the neck down. I am unable to see his face. Upon his head he wears crown. He is very tall and very strong looking. When I see him, he does not wear a robe. But something that looks like ancient battle gear. He carries a sword. I've seen him several times since the Lord told me about Gabriel. He does not look like someone who is depicted in the classical paintings. Paintings show that he is a saintly figure, clean and wholesome looking. I looks like someone who has been in battle and who is ready for a battle. I see someone who is very strong and powerful looking.
Now, I can only ponder what is to come. I want more of the Lord. I want to be with Him at every moment of every single hour, minute to the very last second of my day! I want to live and have my being in Him! Praise the Lord for He is good! Bless you Jesus! Bless you Father! Glory to God. All Glory to Him!
Jesus you are worthy of all! Thank you! Thank you! I pray that my life will demonstrate Your life!
I pray for those reading this. Pray that we all may stand in your tangible presence while we live on Earth. Let us love you with all our hearts and minds! I ask that anyone who is struggling at this moment with faith, that you would help their faith and unbelief. Lord encourage those who need to be encouraged. Meet every need Lord. In Jesus name amen!